Heavy Heart

I am writing with a heavy heart today. My church family has been praying for a little boy named Brady who had medullablastoma, more commonly called brain cancer. His mom is an in-law of quite a few people who attend my church so we had him on our prayer chains and knew quite a bit about him.

He turned 4 on June 8. The next day on June 9, he went to play with Jesus. I know he is in such a better place and has no more pain or stress, but I am so sad for his parents and family. Sad that they had to see their child suffer like he did. Sad that they couldn't do anything for him to help take his pain away. Sad that they have to explain to his sister why her brother is not here on Earth anymore. Sad that they have to make the journey back home without taking their son with them to their house.

I do rejoice in the fact that his family knows Jesus and they know Brady is being taken care of by Him. I rejoice that his parents did have 4 years with Brady. I rejoice that they have their daughter and family and friends to help them through this horrible time.

We are doing the viewing, funeral and graveside service in my hometown. I am very torn on going. I did know the family, but not that well. However, I want to show them how sorry I am and that they have support. I am not sure how I will do at a child's funeral though. The last one I was at was for my niece and she was born prematurely and died 35 minutes after birth. That was pretty hard.

I know he is in Heaven, but he is a child-he should be healthy now, running and playing on earth, enjoying his long earthly life and then going to Heaven. I know that is not God's plan though-He knows more than I ever will and I trust Him and His plan. He will not fail this family, He will be with them and give them comfort and strength.

This family is just heavy on my heart because I could not imagine losing my Emma. I don't know how parents have the strength to go on once losing a child. I know that some of you who have read my blog have lost a child and I admire your strength and faith that you have. I just cannot get this family out of my head. I am sure that is God telling me to go see this family tomorrow. I pray that is the right decision.