I am writing with a heavy heart today. My church family has been praying for a little boy named Brady who had medullablastoma, more commonly called brain cancer. His mom is an in-law of quite a few people who attend my church so we had him on our prayer chains and knew quite a bit about him.
He turned 4 on June 8. The next day on June 9, he went to play with Jesus. I know he is in such a better place and has no more pain or stress, but I am so sad for his parents and family. Sad that they had to see their child suffer like he did. Sad that they couldn't do anything for him to help take his pain away. Sad that they have to explain to his sister why her brother is not here on Earth anymore. Sad that they have to make the journey back home without taking their son with them to their house.
I do rejoice in the fact that his family knows Jesus and they know Brady is being taken care of by Him. I rejoice that his parents did have 4 years with Brady. I rejoice that they have their daughter and family and friends to help them through this horrible time.
We are doing the viewing, funeral and graveside service in my hometown. I am very torn on going. I did know the family, but not that well. However, I want to show them how sorry I am and that they have support. I am not sure how I will do at a child's funeral though. The last one I was at was for my niece and she was born prematurely and died 35 minutes after birth. That was pretty hard.
I know he is in Heaven, but he is a child-he should be healthy now, running and playing on earth, enjoying his long earthly life and then going to Heaven. I know that is not God's plan though-He knows more than I ever will and I trust Him and His plan. He will not fail this family, He will be with them and give them comfort and strength.
This family is just heavy on my heart because I could not imagine losing my Emma. I don't know how parents have the strength to go on once losing a child. I know that some of you who have read my blog have lost a child and I admire your strength and faith that you have. I just cannot get this family out of my head. I am sure that is God telling me to go see this family tomorrow. I pray that is the right decision.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
We Have A Name at 21 Weeks!
I tried to post about six times yesterday. Every time I did, Blogger was not working. So frustrating. All well, now it is working.
Baby is doing good! She is moving a lot, it is very low and it tickles me quite a bit. The doctor said she is a big girl. She is measuring about 3-4 days ahead of what I am estimated to be due and she weighs over a pound already(as of two weeks ago at 19 weeks). She is also longer-in the 75%-which I was thrilled about. Poor Emma just made it on the charts with her height at her last well appointment at 18 months. Maybe this baby will be a little taller?? My doctor was happy with my cervix length so we do not have to do ultrasounds every month now. I was sad and happy about that-I don't want to see the costs of it, but I looked forward to seeing her every month in my belly! I do have to have one more ultrasound at 28 weeks because we could not get a good visual of her mouth. They just want to check and make sure she doesn't have cleft palate or anything. So, that makes me nervous just because that is the purpose of the whole ultrasound. I am sure everything is fine though.
We have also picked out a name for the baby. She will be Madelyn Grace. We will call her Maddie while she is little and when she gets older she can decide what she wants people to call her. I am so in love with this name. Brandon pretty much picked it out and I was pretty impressed!
Emma is doing great as well. She is talking so much and just becoming a little adult. She is so independant and loves to give Mama heart attacks. She is really becoming a Daddy's Girl too. It is kind of sickening at times! :) It is sweet. She loves to help me pick up her toys-which is nice because I am starting to get at the point where it is getting harder and harder for me to bend over and then stand back up!! I need to get a belly shot because I am big! I just popped out when I turned 12 weeks and my belly has never looked back. Emma loves to hear her sister too, she loves it when I break out the Doppler. She gives my belly a kiss and tells the baby hi and then bye! It is too precious. She is just the sweetest thing ever.
You can really tell I am a mom because I don't have too much more news right now--all about the kids in this post! I am a little proud! ;) What can I say....God has truly blessed me with them!
Baby is doing good! She is moving a lot, it is very low and it tickles me quite a bit. The doctor said she is a big girl. She is measuring about 3-4 days ahead of what I am estimated to be due and she weighs over a pound already(as of two weeks ago at 19 weeks). She is also longer-in the 75%-which I was thrilled about. Poor Emma just made it on the charts with her height at her last well appointment at 18 months. Maybe this baby will be a little taller?? My doctor was happy with my cervix length so we do not have to do ultrasounds every month now. I was sad and happy about that-I don't want to see the costs of it, but I looked forward to seeing her every month in my belly! I do have to have one more ultrasound at 28 weeks because we could not get a good visual of her mouth. They just want to check and make sure she doesn't have cleft palate or anything. So, that makes me nervous just because that is the purpose of the whole ultrasound. I am sure everything is fine though.
We have also picked out a name for the baby. She will be Madelyn Grace. We will call her Maddie while she is little and when she gets older she can decide what she wants people to call her. I am so in love with this name. Brandon pretty much picked it out and I was pretty impressed!
Emma is doing great as well. She is talking so much and just becoming a little adult. She is so independant and loves to give Mama heart attacks. She is really becoming a Daddy's Girl too. It is kind of sickening at times! :) It is sweet. She loves to help me pick up her toys-which is nice because I am starting to get at the point where it is getting harder and harder for me to bend over and then stand back up!! I need to get a belly shot because I am big! I just popped out when I turned 12 weeks and my belly has never looked back. Emma loves to hear her sister too, she loves it when I break out the Doppler. She gives my belly a kiss and tells the baby hi and then bye! It is too precious. She is just the sweetest thing ever.
You can really tell I am a mom because I don't have too much more news right now--all about the kids in this post! I am a little proud! ;) What can I say....God has truly blessed me with them!
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